half life..But not Game over yet !!!

Few days back when a friend called me on 12AM to wish me for me coming to the earth on that particular date, 30 years ago, I was kind of suddenly having a strange feeling. A feeling that I'd lived(did I??) so many years and the years just flew by and I didn't even noticed it. Life almost went off halfway, gone in like a bullet train and all I'm left with is a faint glimpse of it. Suddenly a fear of loosing myself into the dark oblivion engrossed me. I was thinking what's there after this life? How it'll be and as the life is moving so fast that the end is coming closer[oh, scary, isn't it?]. And what's life actually? Why am I here? What is this force or magic that I'm walking, talking,eating, sleeping and then suddenly one day will come when all these things will stop and I'll just vanish into the thin air? What's the purpose of this life, or as they say, what's the bigger picture?
But then as suddenly sanity prevailed over me and I realized how futile it's about to think of the end. Let's not think about it as it's inevitable anyway. So why bother? Whatever has to happen will happen, destiny has something written for everyone and worrying is not gonna change anything. Let's enjoy what I have now and probably that's how to live a life. And cherish the past, all that remained from past is a memory. Somewhere I've read that human brain erases bad memories as time passes by and so only the good ones remains itched for years.

Forget about the future, forget about the past,
Life is a journey so just have a blast.. [some song by BAdams I guess]

I know this things may sound crazy but sometimes craziness overcomes sanity.

A Wednesday on a thursday..

No, no, it's not about a day but about the thoughts after watching a movie called "A Wednesday". No, it's not a critique about this movie but about the message it was trying to pass. A message to those who thinks that they can kill us at their will and spread their claws of terror to every nook and corner of our country. It's to tell them that yes, we the common people are angry, we really want to retaliate and take revenge for those mindless attacks on us. These cowards, so called terrorists don't even have the guts to come out in the open for a fight. All they can do is to hide behind their veils and plant a bomb in a public place killing the innocent common man. They don't think for a second time when they commit such heinous crimes. They don't have any heart for humanity and they are not someone who can be called humans. Then why should not they be punished whenever they are caught? Why should not they be shown the path to the gallows? Why it takes so much of time to punish these buggers after they are caught? The judgement should be swift and punishment should be severe. Why these human rights and their cohorts make noise when some terrorists are killed by our armed forces? Why why why? I think they are not even humans to have human rights.

The protagonist in the movie raised a question, a question to all of us, if a cockroach enters our houses what do we do to them ? Do we give them shelter or kill them? Yes, we all Indians need to think that way, either be it a Policeman or someone from the decision makes or the common people. Are we going to just sit back and watch those cockroaches spoiling our lovely home, our motherland under our nose? And NO, please don't bring religion here, none of the religions teach us to take up arms. Terrorists doesn't have religion, the only religion they follow is of terrorism. This is just twisted version of those few monsters who have sold their souls, to something called terrorism.

Afterthoughts: It's really ironic that these thoughts are coming on a day of non-violence (2nd Oct) but I feel non-violence works with people who have lil' bit of humanity or civilization left in them. Not with barbarians who have long gone down from the level of humans long back to that of demons.

A journey that changed everything..

..and it changed the world history the way we see it today.Was watching the movie "The Motorcycle Diaries" a movie based on the early life journey of the legendary revolutionary Ernesto (Che) Guevara.While he was studying medicine at Rio in his last year Che decided to take a year off and travel length and breath through South America on a old motorcycle with his friend Granado.This is what have changed the young exuberant Che to someone matured enough to think differently.Who felt for the poor people of South America and he came back with a belief that all the suffering of common man was because of the imperialism/capitalism.A journey that taken him out of the shell he was in before, immune to the outside world probably.He started to see the world with a different view.He started feeling the pain of the poor,neglected people.Fuser(his pet name) got transformed.He transformed into Che as the world know him today.This one journey he realized the injustice done to the people working in the mines of Chile or the sufferings of the leprosy patients on the banks of Amazon.This movie has made me think few things..
May be we all need to come out the comfortable zone we are in now, the shell that we are enjoying.May be we also need to take a journey, may not be as huge as Che's but we need this to view the world with a different eye.May be that won't change world history or anything, but that may change a few lives.Can we ? Can I ??

Life in the fast lane....

Fast cars,expressways and a destination but no time to look around and enjoy the beauty a journey can provide.No time to connect to that small town we've just bypassed, no time to wait for to see that small festival going on that village that we would've crossed.What about the coffee/tea at the roadside stall while it's raining. Instead of using the laid back journey of a small state-highway we prefer to travel by the six laned highway and have our dose of tea/coffee at A1 plazas.Yeah we do reach our destinations faster but that's all about it.We've probably forgotten to enjoy something called journey. And if I see the analogy, the same is exactly happening even to our lives.
These are the thoughts that came to my mind while watching the movie "Cars".It's a animated movie about a hot-racing car Lightning McQueen by mistake drove into a town called Radiator Springs on the forgotten highway of Route 66.Where he met few other cars and he learned something called friendship.The drive on the old route 66 he took with Sally Carrera(the Porche) and how he exclaimed to her how can people just miss the awesome beauty of this road and abandon it for the new interstate. To which Sally said about driving on Route 66 " Well, the road didn't cut through the land like that interstate. It moved with the land, it rose, it fell, it curved" and then the best part "Cars didn't drive on it to make great time,they drove on it to have great time". And exactly what our lives have also become.We are running as fast as we can on this rat race but we've forgotten that we've just lost time and never was able to enjoy the time that just ran past us.We are running towards some obscure destination far away, not a bit bothered about what we've missed.We are making big strides in our career in great time, but we've missed to have a great time.
Wish I can find a way to the route 66 but it seems to be just fading away in the horizon.

Had a bad day..

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day -- Daniel Powter


Well well well, it was supposed to be a fun day and turned out to be a bad day.Nothing went right today for me after lunch.Things never happened according to plan.Got stuck in traffic..Said the wrong words at wrong moment and to top of all these had a small accident which broke my new baby's rear view mirror(RHS).We were lucky (and that bugger nut on the road also) to come unscathed.And after I reached home I successfully hurt my eye also.Luckily nothing major happened except the broken mirror.
Had a bad day..

[Actually things are not just going right for me last few days, all my gadgets are going through a bad phase.. First my DVD player conked off,then Digicam CCD has become history, memory card of my phone gone kaput and the phone also acting funny. God only knows what's happening with me.Hope things won't turn worse,just keeping my fingers crossed]

End of the Begining..

As the adage goes, "All the journeys has to come to an end", and it's been long long 6 yrs and 10 months of a journey in a boat called Aricent(renamed from former Hughes) and today after so many years I've decided to change the boat to give my career a bit more speed, well that's what I hope.. and I always hope for the best.. Been through lots of ups and downs, joys,laughter,tears and what not during these years..
Who says in software industry you don't find friends instead get only colleagues ??No, it's not true.. After coming out of college I thought I'll never be able to find friends like I had during those days.. But my experience in last few years will tell a different story.. It was like going back to the college days,and for a change I used to have fun in office.. Weekdays became more likeable then it ever was..Have found some of my best friends,and well, lost some..
But as every good thing has to come to an end this episode also has to finish..So here I am today, seating @ home at this wee hours getting nostalgic,remembering those beautiful moments that has passed by..My last day @ aricent was today and had to bid goodbye and close a long chapter of my life..

Pending pending pending .. How many more???

My blog - Pending list is tooooo long -- Ooty/Yercaud/Managalore-bekal-surathkal/Ooty again/Munnar-Thekkady-Allepy and the list goes on ..
My photographs - Scanning of old photographs-pending, Processing of new photogrpahs-pending(did I told u ppl that I've got a DSLR? that is also pending..Uploading them into web-don't ask me when..
And ofcourse my bread-butter-jam-toast-chai-coffee, yeah I'm talking about office work-Pending/delayed etc ..
So what the hell I'm doing ?? I wonder ...
Arre, gotta get the med bills or else tax declaration will also be pending and I would make Indian Govt. rich by few thousand bucks.. ;-);-)

Writing after a long time..

Last month was a busy month . .no , not with work even not with photography .. Was busy with family.. My sister,aunt and cousins have came to Bangalore and I was busy moving them around .. It is really nice to have someone from home at Bangalore .. Had a real nice time .. Was feeling sad when they left for home last Wednessday ..
Yesterday Rajeeb invited us to his new house that he have bought recently .. A very nice cute house .. I really liked it and the dinner was very nice ..Normally I don't like fish that much but yesterday it was delicious..
Nothing much to do at office today so thought of writing something into the blog ..

after a week

Saturday : Nothing much is happening .. Last weekend done some shopping,well,bought one more pair of Adidas..sigh ...Honsha has thrown a party at Shiok .. Food was good, but lil' bit on the costlier side .. Anyway had a nice time ..
Sunday : Plan was to sleep as much as possible ..woke up at 10.30 itself .. One more boring sunday has gone by without much to do .. Watched Aitraaz ,so so movie ..
Monday : Well,the day started with a bang-crash-boom .. On the way to office I was hit by a cow on my left side of the car .. Left side window and mirror got shattered to pieces .. I was cursing myself for not being careful..The road itself was not good and actually one big truck was overtaking me so I couldn't moved to the right .. I thought I can pass the horde of cows and almost did.. Suddenly heard the shattering noise and when I looked to my side all I could see was the bits and pieces of my LHS window .. Ohhh God .. It was a cow who decided to hit my window and mirror .. I was totally pissed off and I was cursing myself for not being careful enough to hit by some animals.. ...

Last weekend was a busy weekend ..

Saturday morning (5.45 am) .. wow, can u believe I woke up so early ?? Actually had to meet some guyz from bpc near hebbal lake .. My idea was to take some photographs of the lake and surroundings ..But I end up shooting only birds .. It's amazing to so many birds there .. wish I had a longer lens wih me that day.. at least 500 mm was required .. Anyway I tried to make the most out of what I had .. Hope to get atleast 2 or 3 good exposures ...
Had a nice talk with other guyz(jk and Srikant) .. We r planning for a trip this month .. Probably to a nearby place or to Hampi .. Also seen one photographer in a hide waiting patiently for the avians .. he had a big 600mm lens(wowwww) ..
around 9 we have returned form the place ..
Saturday Afternoon(2.30 pm) - there is one slideshow and presentation by Dr. Manoj Sindhgi at Anand Sharan's studio .. He got some really nice(shall I say awesome) pictures .. Loved the show and also got some nice tips .. It was over by 5.00 pm in the evening ..
Had to go MG road in the evening .. PN Rao has some good collection of suits .. I may need to buy one someday in the near future ... ;-)
Sunday morning we went to Sultanpet.. no not for photogrpahy but with Ajay as he has to get some marriage invitation cards for his marriage .. That place was crowded like anything and we were cursing ourselves as we didn't get any place to park the car.. Had to take a round and then parked it near Gandhinagar .. It was the sunday market because of which such a crowd was there.. Anyway,seen some different types of designs of cards and liked some of them .. ;-)
Ohh God, the whole day we were outside ,after the cards now he(ajay) has to decide on the Suit so we have stormed almost every shop in the Commercial, Brigade, MG,Shopper's stop/start ,lifestyle and what not .. And ultimately PN Rao seemed to be the best option(I already knew it ;-) ) ..returned home by 7 pm and luckily Pankaj & Indrani has invited all of us to their home for dinner(May GOD bless them)..

Yesterday(monday) .. I joined Gym ..Hope I'll able to continue this time...

Today,whole day I have spent studying .. Some n/w mgmt concepts and stuffs like that .. Have to go Gym now(6.10 pm) .. U know have gained so much of weight that I'm ashamed of myself now ..
That's all for today .. Ajay will collect my photographs from Prabhu Digital today ..So have to hurry .. Bye bye dear blog..